NOTJADE: my whole thing right now is learning about the complicated stuff!

NOTJADE: i want to know all about it

YARD JADE: you have no idea how nice that is to hear

YARD JADE: its not like these two want to hear anything i say

YARD JADE: grrrr sorry >_<

YARD JADE: i promise im not normally like this

NOTJADE: its ok!!

NOTJADE: i wont tell anyone

YARD JADE: <3

YARD JADE: ok um

YARD JADE: so you know how memories here are sort of like impressions of an experience and less a literal memory?

YARD JADE: all the other jades can mold theirs around regrets and dreams and whatever else

YARD JADE: because of their own internal interpretations

YARD JADE: i think it sounds crazy when said out loud, but thats the reason all of us are so hard on ourselves

YARD JADE: we ARE the memory, it is us!

NOTJADE: :O

NOTJADE: that makes sense... i think

YARD JADE: really?

NOTJADE: no sorry :P

NOTJADE: keep going!

YARD JADE: heres an example

YARD JADE: dream jades john dies right before they meet officially but her internal desire is to hang out with him

YARD JADE: so she chooses to play with him instead of relive the actual events that happened

YARD JADE: in her experience, that would be the way it should have gone

YARD JADE: even if she knows that is not how it works out

NOTJADE: ohhh

NOTJADE: i see :(

NOTJADE: wait...

NOTJADE: so why do you choose to keep this argument in your memory-experience?

YARD JADE: thats the complicated part

YARD JADE: maybe its because i just know this part has to happen?

YARD JADE: or maybe it makes me so mad that i cant let it go

YARD JADE: i dont know ugh

NOTJADE: :((( thats so sad!!

NOTJADE: its not even your fault that john and davesprite are being inconsiderate jerks!

NOTJADE: all this time i have been encountering other jades who keep putting themselves first over important situations, but this time i really do think you need to do that

NOTJADE: its really messed up to keep going through something negative that you have nothing to do with :(

YARD JADE: but it does have to do with me

YARD JADE: davesprite broke my heart

YARD JADE: and then john blew a fuse over being stuck on this ship with us :(

YARD JADE: i just cant stop thinking about it all

YARD JADE: it is so lonely again even if i have most of my best friends with me

YARD JADE: * sniffle *

NOTJADE: oh no! dont cry!

NOTJADE: i didnt mean to make you more upset :O

NOTJADE: i just really dont understand why you think this situation is how it has to be

NOTJADE: its probably time to let it go!

NOTJADE: it cant be healthy to just keep going through this over and over :(


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